The Vigil of Bernadette Marsden by JS Apsley
Bernie faces a life changing question in a hospital waiting room. Image generated with OpenAI I wait, interminably, for Billy to return with the inevitable news that we both dread. Even the receptionist has abandoned his post, and my only companion is the hum of the lights, droning insistently at me. The lights in the hospital lobby are so bright, leaving no corner to hide, no crook of respite. At home Billy and I never have the big light on. Here, there is nothing but big lights. I realise I am hyper; my senses amplified. Perhaps my brain is filling itself with stimuli to divert its attention from the truth of my husband's mortality. Time passes. I have eyed every wall, read every poster. Some clever soul has left a copy the morning Metro . That, at least, kills five minutes. I play with the contents of my bag, knowing there is nothing there of interest - my keys, my lipstick. But Good Lord , the wait is horrendous. I feel so alone with Billy behind the scenes. Soo...